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Be Sparks

“You can’t go into work like that. It is not professional. That is not a teacher’s haircut.”

Those were the first three sentences out of my wife’s mouth as soon as soon as I got home from my haircut this last week. I shrugged off her professional prudery as paranoia, thinking to myself, I can do whatever the hell I want, but deep down I was a bit worried. Was the mohawk a bit much? Was I pushing too hard?

After a week, I am convinced that not only is the mohawk good for me, but I am here to say that it is good for our school. Hear me out:

Everywhere I go, all week, people smile, pump their fists, and light up when they see me.

“Man, I love that haircut.”

“Really suits you”

“That is just awesome!”

Teachers, principals, students- it doesn’t matter. It is as if everyone is tapping into the sense of freedom one can only feel when one shuns the shroud of conformity and tip-toes along the edge of the preverbal box. You know, the one everyone tells you to think outside of, but choose to sit in comfortably themselves. Schools like all institutions can become stuffy dens of routine. How can they not? With so many procedures, programs, time-tables, curricula, it is almost as if they are designed to bore people to death. Is it any wonder that students and teachers sleepwalk their way through lessons and grumble because they have to write essays, lab reports or report card comments. I can only imagine hospitals, banks, and prisons as places that are more dreary.

But not this week at our school, not for me. Walking through campus with a mohawk seems to have awaken people. It has reminded them that schools were never met to be factories of the status quo. The hair-do is screaming to us all that schools are meant to challenge and excite. There have been times this week that I have been talking seriously about character development with my grade tens and they start cracking up. I mean how absurd right? A 37 year old man with a mohawk spouting off intensely about some ancient novel.

I love the lightness that comes from not taking oneself too seriously. I thrive on the silliness of authenticity and vulnerability. So often we ask students to take risks and express themselves, while we teachers sit behind our walls of adulthood professionalism. If I wanted to be a suit I would have been a banker. I am in the teaching business to be myself, in hopes that kids will see that being yourself, in the face of societal pressure is not that hard to do. We can all be sparks when we are not afraid to get burned. Tell a kid to take a risk…well try it yourself first.

I want my students to realize that adulthood is not some mono-chromatic path to death and professionalism. We are not all mind-numb zombies stressed and chasing bills. We are alive and filled with creativity and passion. I want them to understand that adults come in all shapes and sizes, and our diversity is what makes us such great role models. The way we look, the way we dress, the ink on our arms, the hair on our head is not the only indication of who we are or what we believe. I want my students as well as other teachers, administrators and parents to understand there is no one way teachers should look or act.

It has been a great week. I never thought a haircut would give me such a sense of empowerment. A Swagger. A purpose. Every institution needs a mohawk to remind it not to take itself too seriously. To remind it that life is fun and exciting and that sometimes we need to stand tall and be noticed. I have a challenge for you- what can you do to help ignite a little fire at your school? What can you do to rock the boat a bit; shake things up? Share your ideas below, better yet take some pics of you doing whatever it is you think will enliven your school and add links to the comments below.

A Larger Sense

Social media and in a larger sense the Internet for me is:

a soapbox, a confessional, a journal. It is a stage, a radio station, a blank canvas and a pew. It’s a gallery, summer festival, and a critical friend. It’s a warm embrace and an atta boy. It’s a mirror and a disco ball. A promise made and kept. A vow and a practice squad. The process and the product. It’s spiritual, organic and digital. Real and virtual. It is surreal and three dimensional. Collaborative and selfish. It is a parade, and a long lonesome hike.  A drum circle and job interview. It is a mediation hall and recording studio. A resume and field journal filled with scraps of poetry, tweets, and cosmic contemplations. Myself turned inside out and presented to you with open arms. A photo album, a debate and an intimate conversation. The magnification of a drifting thoughts dressed as philosophizes and manifestos. It is the ability to exist outside oneself for all to see. It is open and free and allows me to say these things to you.

A Letter to James

I received the following email today from a former student from Doha who is now living in Nigeria:

Hello sir,

It’s been quite a while indeed! I can begin to tell you all I have experienced in Nigeria. I thought you were facing some problems when I sent you a message and you didn’t reply. But, James M. told me you were alright. So, I felt compelled to give it another shot.

Education here is really hard and rigorous and I’m in year 10. It’s really hard keeping up with my blog cause it’s hard getting internet. But, fortunately am on holiday and my dad got a really good internet. So I have decided to go back to writing the way YOU have taught me and not the way they teach me here in Nigeria. They write with FORMULAS for god’s sake. I scream at friends that they should learn to express themselves freely and not like a robot! They just stare at me as if am stupid. But I can’t blame them. That’s how they’ve been taught since they were kids. Anyways, I found a really good website for teenage writers called ”young writers society”. You post your work and other writer’s around the world review it. It’s like a blog but better cause it’s mainly a society filled with people my age. You could search me up on this name ”Temi”. I have also been in touch with James M. and his blog and he seems to get smarter everyday. . It’s sickening feeling. One that if I don’t run away from it would take over all my consciousness. Then I would become a robot too. I can’t let that happen.

I hope you reply, I miss you sir. See you in the future.

My response:

Dear James,
I just sent you a quick email informing you that I could not respond to your note tonight, because I am too busy. It is a quiet Wednesday night and I am getting ready to write for a few hours. I am working on a book, you see, and I have committed myself to at least seven hundred and fifty words a night. As I clicked send, however, I couldn’t stop thinking about you and your words. Realizing that there is nothing more urgent than the words I should share with you at this time, I decided to use my seven hundred and fifty words to write to you, because really what writing could I do that would be any more important than this?

You are the reason why I am here, James. You are the reason I teach, I write, I grow, I learn, I love. I live. I am here for you and every kid like you who has ever felt, “I can’t wait to get out and start feeling like a human being again and not like a robot.” I have been there, James. I was born there, James. I am still there, James. The world is not an easy place for individuals. It is not made for freedom and dreams, no matter what we tell ourselves. We are buried under culture and religion and societal expectations. We are buried under our own anxiety, not to mention the needs of our friends and family.

But sometimes, some of us, see the cracks in the walls. We usually see them when we are young. I think I saw it first when I was eight, but before we know it, we feel like we must scream at our friends when they follow formulas. We want to shake the world awake and express ourselves in whatever form we feel necessary. Adults find spontaneous need for expression this scary. They box it and shape it and label it and try to turn it into a future, a career, security, but the problem is that you cannot confine freedom. It is who we are. It is our nature.

I teach not because I am an expert. I have no answers. I am lost and wandering. I teach because I am attracted to that youthful freedom. It still burns within me, and honestly most adults have long lost the passion that got them through their adolescence. They lie to themselves using words like maturity, security, and responsibility, when really they should be using words like regret, compromise, and loss.

What am I trying to say? Am I just rambling to fill my quota? I am trying to say that you have a gift, James. Insight. Passion. Drive. Talent. Love. Thirst. Curiosity. The world will do its best to chip away at each of these characteristics. I don’t need to tell you that. Look around, you see it everywhere you look. It is not unique to Nigeria. Trust me.

I remember one time in class you said something like, “Mr. Raisdana you see the world in such ugly shades and notice everything that is wrong. How can you sleep at night?” Do you remember that? The answer is still the same: I see the world as it is. Sure it will get us down, sure it is not how we want it to be, sure it will try to turn us into robots who write by using formulas, it will force us to take accounting instead of art, it will tell us to grow up, but we must not allow it to extinguish the fire inside each of us.

That is all we have, James. Those tiny flickering flames of hope and daring. Of love and passion inside of you is the same one inside of me. It is the same energy in every dreamer and artists, every saint and prophet. This fervor of the imagination is what keeps us going. It is why you are emailing me and why I am writing you with tears in my eyes. It is not childish or disillusioned. It is what will keep you sane. It is what will keep you company when everything else is too much to bare. It will sing you to sleep and point out the moon when you are alone. It will write your books, paint your pictures, make your films, and carry you on stage. It will support you when there is no one else, but most importantly…it will help you find the flame inside others.

It is what has brought you here. It is why I teach, why I write, why I share and create. I tend my flame and hope that others will be drawn to it. Because if it goes out…well let’s not think of that. Thank you for thinking of me and more importantly writing to me James. I have been receiving emails like yours from students from all around the world for years, and I can honestly say that these emails are the most important part of my life. As teachers we are often vilified, but to know that our passions are passed on is the most rewarding thing I could ever imagine.

I will look you up on that website and you can always find me online. The future is far and wide. I am sure our paths will cross. You are not a robot, no matter what they say! You are one of the most intelligent and passionate artists I have ever met just hold onto that. I hope you don’t mind that I have shared this on my blog. I am hoping that others will join in and share their thoughts. We are individuals, but there is power in the communities we build. Society is not only what others say it is. It does not control us completely. We have a say. We have a right to share this flame. I hope who ever is reading this will do just that…